Current mood:

contemplative

Wake up call
So I went to NY yesterday and came back this afternoon. It was really fun, I got to see Lindsay, shop at Sephora, see Sweeney Todd, and visit Parsons.

1. Sweeney was amazing. Totally worth seeing. It's so different an abstract and completely wonderful all together. Patti and Michael are seperately, two of the most amazing performers I've ever seen, and as a pair, even more brilliant.

2. Visiting Parsons was really good. I mean, I still don't think it's right for me, I'll probably apply anyway, but I doubt I'll end up there. The good thing about it though was that it was a really good wake up call. I had a lot of fun and I really liked the students and even the campus, however, the one problem-- was me! I felt like I didn't fit in. The students and the group of girls in the tour with me were obviously infatuated with their designated course. They had all made art their lives and I realized that I hadn't. I've been making theatre my life I've been heading in the wrong direction it seems without realizing it. As sad and desperate as it is, the best idea would be to quit Cinderella and go to whatever art classes will take me. Unfortunately I don't have the guts to do that. I guess I'm lucky that I'm ensemble because I'm going to try to make this work as best as I can. *shrugs* I'm not sad or depressed or anything, part of me doesn't really regret spending so much time at Peacock, I love all my friends there and the times I've had, I really don't think I'd trade them in. But I guess I just need to get my act together finally.